Parthasarathy

Parthasarathy was the fourth son in a family of 6 sons and 2 daughters. He was the main breadwinner for his family. He was held in high esteem in the family circles. He was a flourishing businessman at Gudiyatam, a small town in north Tamilnad state. In 1971, he married Rathika, daughter of a rich businessman of Madurai in south Tamilnad State. The marriage had been an arranged one and in a few days he had become disillusioned with his wife. Whereas Parthasarathy was full of ideas and concepts about life, Rathika was a simple woman. In a few days of married life there developed a sort of psychological aversion in the mind of Parthasarathy for Rathika. In due course he openly exhibited his displeasure through his rude behavior towards her. She was shocked and was deeply offended. All her dreams about the married life were shattered and she was in tremendous pain.

Parthasarathy wanted to get married again with someone else of his taste at Gudiyatam where he lived. To enable the marriage he wanted to divorce his wife. He openly expressed his desire to Rathika to marry another girl and sought her cooperation to get the divorce mutually. Rathika got shocked and she could not control herself. She cried and begged Parthasarathy not to abandon her. But Parthasarathy was in the spell of his own imagination. His concepts and desires had become most important and vital for him. He didn’t care about the pain of others in the process of satisfying his desires. This matter became very serious in the family circle and it reached Rathika’s elder sister’s husband, Sri S.P.Janardhanan, who lived in Bangalore. He also got shocked and talked to Parthasarathy. The latter refused to listen to him. Finally he had to ask for the help of Sri. Rajamanicka Nadar, his mother’s younger sister’s husband, who was a devotee of Yogi Ramsuratkumar to suggest a way out to solve the problem. Rajamanicka Nadar suggested Janardhanan to take Rathika and her parents to Tiruvannamalai to see Yogi. He assured that the problems of Rathika would get solved once Yogi intervened.

Janardhanan within a few days took his wife, Vijaya, her sister Rathika and her parents to see Yogi at Tiruvannamalai in 1975. He met Yogi under the Punnai tree behind the Tiruvannamalai Railway Station. He told Yogi about Parthasarathy. Yogi listened to the whole story patiently. Rathika was sobbing silently. On seeing Yogi, the whole group got a glimpse of hope in their hearts. Particularly Rathika felt that Yogi would do something to correct her husband. Yogi unexpectedly expressed his desire to see Parthasarathy. Yogi requested Sri S.P.Janardhanan to bring Parthasarathy to him. Janarthanan replied that he would try to bring Parthasarathy to Yogi. In a few hours they took leave of Yogi and reached their places.

In the meantime Parthasarathy could not concentrate in the business due to his marital problems. He suffered huge loss in the business. He was in a serious financial crisis at that time and was searching for people who could lend him money to pay the creditors. When Janardhanan contacted him to express Yogi’s wish to see him, Parthasarathy made use of that opportunity to demand money from Janardhanan. Janardhanan said that he would lend him money on a condition that Parthasarathy should agree to go with him to Tiruvannamalai to see Yogi. Parthasarathy was not interested in visiting Yogi. Parthasarathy didn’t have any belief on saintly persons. Even though he sang devotional songs and occasionally visited temples, he was more or less an atheist.

In 1976 his financial problems developed into a serious crisis and he again visited Janardhanan to request him to lend the required money so as to solve his financial crisis. Janardhanan lured him by saying that they should first go to Yogi in Tiruvannamalai and if Yogi suggested he would give money. Parthasarathy had to agree to visit Yogi. He believed that he could influence ‘the old Yogi’ to recommend to Janardhanan to lend him the money.

Janardhanan took Parthasarathy to Tiruvannamalai in a taxi to see Yogi on 30/8/1976. They reached Tiruvannamalai in the evening around 6 o’ clock. They went straight to Theradi Mandapam near the big temple. There Parthasarathy saw an old man in rags sitting in the mandapam. Janardhanan prostrated before Yogi but Parthasarathy did not want to. Janardhanan insisted Parthasarathy to prostrate before Yogi, but he hesitated. Yogi leaned towards Parthasarathy and caught hold of his both hands. Janardhanan introduced him to Yogi. Yogi expressed his joy on seeing Parthasarathy and exclaimed again and again, “How did this happen? Father is so kind to send you here.” He was looking at Parthasarathy with all love and joy.

After sometime Yogi relieved Parthasarathy and asked him to sit in front of him. Yogi asked Parthasarathy if Rathika was all right. Parthasarathy replied that he didn’t know because she was staying with her parents. Yogi asked Parthasarathy how he was doing. He replied that he was in deep financial crisis and needed money. Yogi said, “You make Rathika happy and my Father will help you.” Parthasarathy asked Yogi how an unhappy man could make anyone happy. At that time, Parthasarathy liked to talk with people in English because he thought it lent him some sophistication. Parthasarathy began to find Yogi attractive because Yogi talked in English.

In the meantime a few people came there, prostrated before Yogi and sat in front of him. Yogi asked the name of everybody and asked if he could do anything for them. The people told that they wanted to have his blessings, for which Yogi replied, “My Father blesses you all.” After some time the people left Yogi.

Yogi turned his attention to Parthasarathy again. Yogi suddenly started talking about Buddha. Parthasarathy told Yogi that he didn’t like Buddha because he had run away from the family, leaving behind his wife, parents, the newborn son and the kingdom. “What has he changed in the world?” Parthasarathy asked. Hearing this, Yogi’s demeanor became very serious. Yogi asked Parthasarathy, “What is the name of Buddha’s mother?” Parthasarathy replied, “Maya”. Yogi again asked the name of Buddha’s wife. Parthasarathy responded with the answer, “Yashodhara”. Yogi shot again with the question, “What is the name of Buddha’s son?” Parthasarathy replied, “Rahul”. Yogi asked Parthasarathy how it was possible that he could remember the names of all those people who had lived more than 2000 years ago. It would be very difficult to remember the names of one’s ancestors, beyond three or four generations, but, in the case of great people one could remember their names and life history, even though those great people lived thousands of years ago. Yogi said, “You don’t know the value of the name. The very name Buddha inspires thousands of people. It can take one to divinity. The Buddha is in your heart, in your being.”

There was a pause for a long time. Yogi was in deep silence and it appeared that he was in a different world. It was strange and attractive for Parthasarathy. After a long time Yogi became normal. Yogi again started the conversation and suggested to Parthasarathy to go and see his wife Rathika. Yogi requested him not to make her cry. “Rathika is weeping, Parthasarathy. You should visit her and make her happy.”

Parthasarathy got emboldened due to the free conversation with Yogi. He told Yogi that he loved another girl and had promised to marry her. He also tried to express his apparent honesty by saying that since he had promised, it would be a sin not to keep up his promise. Yogi instantly said, “Put that sin on this beggar’s head.” Parthasarathy was adamant and argued with Yogi, saying, “This time it is alright, Swami. If suppose I repeat the same thing with some other girl in future, on whose head should I put the sin again?” Yogi stared at him and did not answer.

After some time Yogi continued to talk about Buddha at the mandapam, till 10.30 pm and then they all moved into the metal vessel shop nearby, where Yogi used to sleep in the night. Yogi was full of energy. Parthasarathy was impatient to get ahead with his business and he told Yogi that if Yogi would recommend, Janardhanan would lend him the money he needed. Yogi ignored what he said and told him that Rathika was unhappy and Parthasarathy should make her happy. Parthasarathy narrated how generous he was when he had surplus money. He had donated to several temples and also for other noble causes. Even then he was suffering. Yogi listened to Parthasarathy with rapt attention and appreciated him for his generous attitude. Taking advantage, Parthasarathy again tried to induce Yogi to convince Janardhanan to help him financially. Yogi simply replied that Rathika suffered a lot and Parthasarathy should make her happy.

Parthasarathy was in a strange mood because he had thought that he could convince the old swami to recommend to Janardhanan to lend money to him. That did not happen. Further, Yogi did not criticise Parthasarathy either. All Yogi did was suggesting to Parthasarathy to make Rathika happy. Yogi didn’t command or force him to do something. Yogi was all the time patiently listening to him, but, he was firm in his stand. Though Yogi fully listened to him carefully, he had not reacted the way Parthasarathy expected him to. All the time he was coaxing him to go back to Rathika. After midnight, both Parthasarathy and Janardhanan were relieved to go to a lodge to stay for the night. They visited Yogi next day morning at the mandapam.

The next day was Vinayaka Chaturthi, a Hindu festival. Parthasarathy and Janardhanan reached the mandapam in the morning to meet Yogi again. A large crowd of devotees had come to see Yogi. They had brought with them the favourite offering to Ganesha, kozhukattai (rice balls filled with coconut and sweet jaggery) and offered the same to Yogi. Yogi was in a blissful state. Yogi kept on saying “Ganesha will give today a lot of sweets to this beggar and Parthasarathy.”

After a while Yogi went up to a place behind the railway station where he used to sit under a Punnai tree during the daytime. Yogi talked to Parthasarathy as if he had known him for a long time. He asked Parthasarathy if he could sing devotional songs. Parthasarathy told that his mother had taught him several devotional songs. Yogi expressed his joy and asked him to sing a song. Parthasarathy sang a couple of songs. Then Parthasarathy told that he had composed a song in English. Yogi asked to recite the song. The song was:

“A lovely life that of mine
Full of miseries that makes me divine
Never the hell I see again
When I know its life’s chain.

Much more, more I wish to have
As it will take close to His cave
Such I make miseries mild
Hence I can ever smile.”

Yogi asked Parthasarathy to write the song on a piece of paper. He asked Parthasarathy whether he could make changes in the song for which Parthasarathy agreed. Yogi changed the poem as,

“ A lovely life that of mine
Full of miseries that takes me to divine
Never the hell I see again
When I know its life’s grain.

Much more, more I wish to have
As it will take me to his lap
Such I make miseries mild
Hence I can ever smile.”

After completing the correction, Yogi asked Parthasarathy to go through the poem again and again to see whether the corrections were appropriate. Parthasarathy was surprised to see an ordinary poem became so meaningful after a few touches of a great Yogi. It was also a thrilling experience, listening to the appreciation of Yogi, “Parthasarathy you are a poet”. Yogi also asked Parthasarathy, “Parthasarathy will you write poems on this beggar?” for which Parthasarathy said yes.

Parthasarathy found that Yogi spoke in a way that he could understand. In a mysterious way Yogi attracted him. However, whenever the question of money came up, Yogi would mention Rathika’s problem and would request Parthasarathy to make Rathika happy. It disappointed Parthasarathy. Finally Yogi gave his framed photo to Parthasarathy after writing Parthasarathy’s name in Hindi on the frame of the photo.

Yogi said, “This beggar leaves you, my friend. You can start now. Do you know this beggar’s name?” Parthasarathy said he knew. Yogi requested Parthasarathy saying “Remember this beggar’s name.” Parthasarathy said affirmatively and enquired Yogi when he could visit Yogi again. Yogi replied, “You can come with Janardhanan whenever you want to see this beggar, otherwise this beggar will not be able to recognize you.” Parthasarathy did not want to come back with Janardhanan. So he said to Yogi, “No, I will make you remember me when I come back alone next time.” Yogi just laughed. Parthasarathy prostrated before Yogi willingly and Yogi patted him on the back.

Janardhanan left for Bangalore in the taxi and Parthasarathy went to Gudiyatam by bus. After reaching his place, Parthasarathy could not forget Yogi. The whole conversation and the blissful laughing of Yogi were ringing in his ears. Suddenly he remembered Yogi’s wish that he should write a song on Yogi. He thought a few moments and wrote a song within a few minutes. In another five days he was at Tiruvannamalai again to see Yogi. He was pulled to Yogi by a mysterious power. He rushed to the Punnai tree where Yogi was sitting with his assistants. As soon as he reached Yogi, he prostrated Yogi and Yogi was able to recognize Parthasarathy. Yogi welcomed Parthasarathy with all joy and made him sit near him. Yogi enquired about Parthasarathy’s financial problems with all concern. Parthasarathy explained the financial crisis in length, but Yogi didn’t respond. Yogi held his hand and that was soothing to Parthasarathy.

Yogi asked Parthasarathy to sing a song. Parthasarathy sang a devotional song and Yogi applauded his singing. Parthasarathy informed Yogi that he had written a song on Yogi in Tamil. Yogi asked him to sing the song. Though Parthasarathy had not set the tune, somehow he managed to sing the song. Upon hearing the song, Yogi asked Parthasarathy to explain the meaning of the song. Parthasarathy explained the meaning in English.

‘A lover of Vedas having Holy Feet, A mystic of everlasting grace
Unbiased great devotee of God, Yogi Ramsuratkumar!
If one go near Yogi Ramsuratkumar, the Purity in this life and future one
Prevails, and the eternal bliss will gracefully shower
The evils would be destroyed, Lord Annamalaiyar’s
Grace and help would ever keep one well and protects.’

Yogi listened to the meaning of the song. As soon as Parthasarathy completed, Yogi patted Parthasarathy on the back and flattered him, saying “If anybody comes near this beggar, Lord Annamalai will protect them, oh, oh! Parthasarathy has written a wonderful song on this beggar.” Parthasarathy began to feel himself superior than the other devotees who had gathered there and they seemed jealous of all the attention he was receiving from Yogi.

Parthasarathy was doing a match box business at Gudiyatam. He procured match boxes from the manufacturers and sold them in the northern parts of India. It was very prosperous in the beginning, but after Parthasarathy’s disappointment in the married life and got in the web of an affair with a young girl, he was not able to pay attention to the business. His intelligence did not work how to handle the money. He spent money in a way to attract people and in due course he was in a huge debt trap in 1975-76. He tried to repay the money through several sources including Janardhanan, but he couldn’t succeed.

The people who reposed great trust in Parthasarathy suddenly started giving pressure to him to repay the money. Till that time Parthasarathy was managing by telling several lies. After he met Yogi, he got emboldened and wanted to finish this mess by telling the truth to the people that he had no money to repay. He revealed the reality to his business associates. They were shocked. They started enquiring about Parthasarathy’s family and found his father in law was rich enough. So they decided to file a complaint at the police. They thought by putting pressure through police, his father in law would come forward to settle the problem. They did not know that Parthasarathy’s relationship with his father in law was in strain. They filed a complaint at the police station. The police arrested Parthasarathy and took him to the police station.

At the police station the inspector threatened him by saying if he would not arrange money he would be put in jail. Parthasarathy contacted Rathika over phone and pleaded for money. Poor Rathika was just weeping over phone but could not do anything. Parthasarathy was disheartened and finally said to the inspector that he could not arrange money. The inspector filed a cheating case and presented Parthasarathy in the Vellore Judicial court. The court remanded Parthasarathy and put him in the central jail at Vellore.

On hearing the news Janardhanan came from Bangalore. He wanted to take advantage of the situation. He came to the central jail and met the jail superintendent who was known to him. He requested the jail superintendent, who was also a devotee of Yogi, to threaten Parthasarathy with bad consequences if he did not go back to live with his wife. The jail superintendent called Parthasarathy to his office in the jail and threatened him if he didn’t live with Rathika, he would have to face severe consequences. Parthasarathy was calm and did not protest or argue.

Parthasarathy was in the jail for 18 days. One of Parthasarathy’s younger brothers Madhusoodhanan came from Vandavasi and got him out on bail. Even though Janardhanan came to Vellore, he didn’t try to get bail for Parthasarathy. He was a mute spectator of the situation. He came to know through the jail superintendent that Parthasarathy was about to be released from the jail on bail. He rushed to Vellore. After getting the bail Parthasarathy came out of the jail and Janardhanan met him at the gate of the jail. Parthasarathy requested Janardhanan to take him to Tiruvannamalai to see Yogi. Janardhanan willingly obliged and both Janardhanan and Parthasarathy went to Tiruvannamalai to see Yogi. They saw Yogi at the mandapam. There was a heavy downpour on that day and so Yogi could not move to the Punnai tree.

Yogi received Parthasarathy in a different way. The usual bliss in him was missing. Yogi was grim. He was not in a mood of talking. All the time he was staring at Parthasarathy. Whenever Parthasarathy looked at him, Yogi would lower his head or would look somewhere else. Parthasarathy had some questions to ask Yogi but there were several people sitting before Yogi. So, he started talking in Hindi language so that others couldn’t understand. Parthasarathy told Yogi in Hindi, “I think you are the cause of all my problems and you are doing some black magic!” Yogi became very serious and said in English, “Yes, this beggar is the only reason for all that is happening in your life, in everybody’s life, why in the whole universe. He is one without second and the only reason for all the happenings in the whole universe.”

Parthasarathy was thrilled by the energy behind this outburst. He did not know how to react. He was about to cry. Yogi then asked him to come nearer and patted him. Parthasarathy started crying. Yogi calmed him down saying that even Sri Aurobindo was in prison and he realised God only in the prison. Aurobindo was able to see Krishna everywhere while he was in jail. Yogi consoled Parthasarathy saying, “Father wanted you to go through these experiences. Whatever happens happens by the will of my Father. So, nothing is wrong, Parthasarathy. Everything is perfectly alright. ”

Then Yogi urged Parthasarathy to go with Janardhanan, much against his will. Janardhanan too did not want to take Parthasarathy home with him. He had the fear that the debtors would demand money from him. So he decided that they should go to Madras to see Gnanagiri Ganeshan who had then started a paper mill in Pondicherry and Rajamanicka Nadar, his father’s co-brother. He obtained permission from Yogi and then both went to Madras. They stayed in a hotel there. They first met Ganeshan. Ganeshan talked to Parthasarathy, quoting the scriptures, in a highly philosophical vein, which made no sense to Parthasarathy. He was hungry and felt broken. All he wanted was a simple food and a few consoling words. The dress he was wearing since from 20days became so dirty and smelled. He was wearing no footwear. He never was in that shape before in life.

The next day Janardhanan took Parthasarathy to a readymade garments shop and purchased one pair of dress for him. Rajamanicka Nadar’s elder son and Janardhanan took him to a five star hotel and there they ate together. There was a heavy downpour that day. Janardhanan became tired of the situation and he didn’t know what to do further with Parthasarathy. Already a week passed since he left Bangalore. He wanted to go back to Bangalore and attend his works. He had works in his office. He didn’t have time to console Parthasarathy. He didn’t want to do that either. He believed that Parthasarathy suffered due to his false and bad deeds. He also openly declared that Parthasarathy disobeyed Yogi and so Yogi gave him the punishment. Such ideas and words provoked Parthasarathy and he in turn wanted to be away from the known relatives and friends.

Janardhanan did not have enough money to settle the lodge bill. He instructed Parthasarathy to ask Ganeshan to settle the lodge bill and went to Bangalore. Parthasarathy went to Ganeshan and explained the situation. Ganeshan sent his manager and settled the hotel bill.

Parthasarathy was then expecting just a loving and understanding gesture from the friends and relatives to assure him for a hunger free life. The friends and relatives gave only advices and instructions and finally dropped him alone in the streets of Madras. Parthasarathy did not know where to go and what to do. He did not like to go to his parents who were struggling then financially and became a burden to them again. He had no money. Finally he went to an old time friend. He started staying at the friend’s house in the night and spending the daytime in the Madras beach writing songs on Yogi. (Those songs later became very popular among the devotees as Yogi liked those songs.)

Meanwhile, the girl whom Parthasarathy loved had heard of his plight and decided not to have anything to do with him. Her parents arranged her marriage. Parthasarathy came to know about the marriage and wanted to stop it by personally seeing her, but he was unable to go to her because of his empty wallet. He was in Madras and the girl was living in another town which was far away from Madras. After he met Yogi, it was so strange that he could not see the girl even once for one or the other reasons. Later Yogi explained to him that when Father wants to do something, HE will create ‘a situation’, so that things get done in their own way.

Parthasarathy used to communicate almost every event happened in his life to Yogi either through letters or during his personal meeting with Yogi. With immense pain he communicated through a letter to Yogi about the wedding of the girl. A few days after the marriage, he was able to come to Tiruvannamalai. He met Yogi under the Punnai tree and poured out his emotions. Yogi listened to him patiently and consoled him with soothing words and gave him energy to bear the loss. Yogi talked about Kunti (of Mahabharatha) who demanded Lord Krishna for more problems in every birth so that she could remember Krishna constantly. During the crisis time of Parthasarathy, Yogi was the only person, who spent time with him showering compassion, concern and love on him. Every known person would run away from Parthasarathy on seeing him, imagining that the latter would demand money from them. On the other hand, whenever Parthasarathy visited Yogi, the latter always welcomed him with all love and would spare much time for him. Yogi used to offer money to Parthasarathy whenever the latter required, but without his asking. He also fed Parthasarathy during his stay with Yogi. However Yogi didn’t allow Parthasarathy to stay with him permanently. So he used to stay in Madras. Whenever he got tired of life and was able to get some money he would visit Yogi and got re-energized.

In a few days Parthasarathy could not withstand the problems of the day to day life and the loss of the girl he loved. He developed suicidal tendency and left Madras for Tiruvannamalai on 8th January 1977. He went to the mandapam to see Yogi but he was not there. He was told that Swami was with Dr. T. P. Meenakshisundaram, the first vice chancellor of Madurai University, in a chataram (inn). Parthasarathy went there and knocked at the door. The door was opened by a small girl and Yogi himself came to the door. He took Parthasarathy inside and made him sit by his side.

Yogi asked Parthasarathy to sing a song, but the latter replied that he wasn’t well. Yogi asked one of the women present there to give Parthasarathy food, which he refused saying he was not well. Yogi got hold of his hand. Yogi asked a lady there to dance Bharatha Natyam. Parthasarathy got annoyed that Yogi was so much enjoying the dancing while he was suffering and so he sprang up. Yogi asked him what had happened. Parthasarathy said firmly that he wanted to leave. Yogi said, “Alright, my Father will be with you. You can leave now.”

Parthasarathy left Yogi and reached his room in the lodge. He wrote a two-page letter addressed to Yogi, saying that everybody had deserted him and he had gone to Yogi for solace and he too had deserted him. He lost everything and so there was no meaning in living. That’s why he was committing suicide and nobody was responsible for his decision. After he completed the letter he consumed a pesticide to kill himself. He felt anxiety and fear. He kept the door of his room in the lodge open and lay down on the bed. After that he was not aware of anything.

The next thing he felt was the hot Sun rays hitting his face through the east-facing window of his room. He got off the bed. He felt no ill effects from the poison he consumed. Parthasarathy felt furious towards Yogi, feeling that he was playing some trick on him. He felt that Yogi was neither allowing him to die nor to have a life of his choice. So he left the lodge in great anger to see Yogi.

Parthasarathy found Yogi under the Punnai tree. When Yogi saw him approaching Yogi with anger, Yogi ran to him, caught hold of his hands and pointed to the top of the mountain. “Go to the top of the hill and jump from there. Let us see whether you die or not,” he said to Parthasarathy. Yogi again roared, “You don’t know you are under the protection of this beggar.” Parthasarathy was thrilled, awestruck and amazed that how could Yogi know about his suicide attempt. Then alone he was able to understand that he was standing before a great soul, who could see everything irrespective of time, space and causation. He could not say anything. Tears were running down from his eyes. Yogi took him by hand to the place where he had been sitting earlier beneath the Punnai tree. Yogi kept holding his hand for a long time. There were others around him and they kept singing Yogi’s name. Yogi asked Perummal to bring coffee for all. Yogi drank some coffee from the dry coconut shell and asked Parthasarathy to drink the rest from the same coconut shell.
All the while, Yogi kept holding Parthasarthy’s hand but did not talk to him. In the night he did not allow Parthasarathy to go back to the lodge. Yogi took Parthasarathy along with him and made him stay with him in the night at the corridor of the vessel shop. The next day Murugeshan with his family came from Tuticorin to see Yogi.

After Murugeshan’s arrival, another devotee from Sivakasi, Sivasankaran with his family came to see Yogi. Both the devotees spent time talking with Yogi. They stayed at Sivakasi Nadar Chatram. Yogi then used to take Parthasarathy with him and allowed him to go to his lodge only to take bath and change the clothes. Yogi then insisted Parthasarathy to stay with him mostly.

Yogi would ask from time to time what time it was. Parthasarathy was astonished that whenever Yogi asked for the time, hours had passed without his being conscious of it. Parthasarathy realised that, time did not matter because when there was love, there was no time. It was Yogi’s love and grace that sustained and protected him. He realised that God alone could love in the manner that Yogi loved others. Yogi’s love brought people to the right path of life that would lead them to God. Life has its own laws. They are natural and irrevocable. Those are God’s laws and they are made known to others by the holy people like Yogi. If anybody refuses to adopt those laws in their daily life, innumerable and intolerable pains and problems will creep in their lives. Those pains and problems will force them to walk on the right path and understand the compassion and grace of God. To indicate this truth, Yogi used to say “God tortures, God kills, because He loves.” Parthasarathy was practically ignorant when he first met Yogi. If at all he knows anything now, it is all due to his association with Yogi.

On January 22, 1977, Parthasarathy had to go to Vellore to appear in the court. (The case prolonged for a long time. The court finally dismissed the case in 1980 after a lot of adjournments.) Yogi gave him some money. Parthasarathy could not settle the bill to the lodge with that money as the rent due was more than that he got from Yogi. Hence he went straight to Vellore to appear in the court and then went to Madras without collecting his baggage at the lodge. He was left without additional dress.

Parthasarathy used to visit Tiruvannamalai from time to time to see Yogi. After his suicide attempt, Yogi instructed him to stay in the Sivakasi Nadar chatram. For another two years Yogi wouldn’t talk much to Parthasarathy. He would ask in a few words if he had written any new songs. When Parthasarathy was sitting before Yogi with other devotees, Yogi would inquire of everyone with love what he could do for them, but he would skip Parthasarathy and ask the man next to him. Parthasarathy was waiting to tell him his problems and express himself about his condition, but he never got the chance.

During that time, Yogi used to say, “Whatever happens, happens by the will of my Father. So nothing is wrong in this world. Everything is perfectly all right. My Father alone is the doer and my Father cannot commit any mistake. So everything is perfectly all right.” On hearing this Parthasarathy wondered. As he was suffering total disorder in his own life and saw everywhere around the world only the chaos, confusion, conflicts and other turmoil, he was wondering how Yogi could declare such statements. As Yogi stopped talking to Parthasarathy, he could not get the courage to ask his doubts to Yogi. Suddenly Yogi enquired him about his youngest brother Sankaranarayanan. Parthasarathy told that he was studying Medicine in Madurai Medical College. Yogi suggested Parthasarathy to visit his younger brother at Madurai.

Parthasarathy visited his brother at Madurai General Hospital. When he was talking to his brother, suddenly he got an urge to see the anatomy section of the hospital. He requested his brother to take him to the anatomy section. His brother took him there. Parthasarathy saw in the big hall several dead bodies were kept, well preserved and the students were doing some research works on the bodies. One of the bodies was kept on a cement platform with the abdomen opened. It seemed to be in total disorder and congestion. Parthasarathy enquired his brother why it was so in disorder. Parthasarathy’s brother replied, “What you are seeing is perfectly in order. If anything is slightly displaced, you cannot bear the pain and then only there will be disorder.” Parthasarathy felt thrilled and understood what Yogi meant to say. Behind every apparent disorder there is a perfect order.

By that time Parthasarathy was begging money from various friends and contacts. Yogi asked him to read Papa Ramdas’ book ‘In Quest Of God’, which made him feel better about begging. Parthasarathy couldn’t bear to go back to his parents. Their financial position was poor. However, he asked his wife to go with him, hoping that he could get some money off her to start another business, but Yogi asked her not to go with Parthasarathy. Yogi then suggested her to remember Yogi’s name and do tulasi puja.

Yogi had stopped talking to Parthasarathy after he tried to commit suicide. On those days, Parthasarathy used to stay with Yogi several days, either in the corridor of the vessel shop or in the Sannathi Street house. Yogi would ask others to tell Parthasarathy such as to sing a song, bring coffee from the Udupi hotel — all only indirectly. When the two were left alone, Yogi would say, “Sing this beggar’s name,” as to no one in particular. Parthasarathy wanted his love for Yogi to be reciprocated. Whenever Yogi ignored him, it caused a great pain in him. Parthasarathy would start singing more songs and whenever he looked at Yogi, Yogi would turn his face away.

In 1979, Parthasarathy told Yogi that he wanted to work and asked him if he could ask Janardhanan for a job. Yogi replied in the negative, but added if Janardhanan offered him a job, that would be fine. After a few days’ stay with Yogi, Parthasarathy wanted to go to Bangalore to explore the possibilities of getting a job there. Yogi gave him money and Parthasarathy went to Bangalore.

In Bangalore Parthasarathy met Janardhanan who was willing to give him a job, but he would have to ask Yogi first. He went to Tiruvannamalai and met Yogi there. He put forth his idea to Yogi to offer a job to Parthasarathy in his office. Yogi told Janardhanan that he should first obtain the permission from his brothers and parent to keep Parthasarathy as one of the staff in his office. Janardhanan accepted Yogi’s suggestion and went back to Bangalore. He asked his brothers and parent for permission to offer a job to Parthasarathy in their Bangalore office. Janardhanan’s brothers and parent agreed to the idea. Thus Janardhanan appointed Parthasarathy in his office. He asked Parthasarathy to stay in a small quarters in the ground floor with the other staff of the office, while he lived in the first floor. Parthasarathy was in such a dire need that he had to ask Janardhanan to give him some money for another set of clothes.

Meanwhile, Yogi had asked Parthasarathy to read all the six volumes of Swami Ram Tirtha’s book ‘In the Woods of God Realisation’ and ‘J.Krishnamurti’s Note Book’. In 1977 Yogi had prescribed to Parthasarathy all the works of Papa Ramdas, J.Krishnamurti and Rajneesh. Parthasarathy had no money then to buy those books. Whatever book Yogi prescribed for Parthasarathy, Janardhanan would buy the same books out of his own love for books and lend them to Parthasarathy. Parthasarathy wondered and could not understand how it happened. Great transformation happened in Parthasarathy on reading the books of the great souls. The words of Swami Ram Tirtha that “God cannot exist without you” made Parthasarathy feel energized and Yogi indirectly gave him the significance of God. At that time, Parthasarathy wrote so many songs on Yogi that had reflected the wisdom of those great saints. He became quite well known among the devotees of Yogi due to those songs.

In meantime, within six months of joining work in Janardhanan’s office at Bangalore there arose some misunderstanding between Janardhanan and Parthasarathy due to one of the brothers of Janardhanan. Parthasarathy felt that he could not live anymore under the custody of Janardhanan. He wanted to leave and when he expressed his wish to Janardhanan, Janardhanan asked him to go to Yogi.

Parthasarathy reached Yogi and he expressed his inability to live at Janardhanan’s place. Yogi asked him that if he had already decided to leave Janardhanan, why he came to Yogi. Parthasarathy told him that he wanted to live at Bangalore in the custody of Janardhanan, but the situation there did not allow him to have a peaceful atmosphere. Yogi paused for some time and then he asked whether it would be possible for Parthasarathy to stay with Yogi for a few days. Parthasarathy agreed. Then for the next three weeks Parthasarathy was with Yogi, spending the whole daytime for ten days and during the rest of the days he was instructed to spend the whole night with Yogi.

In the daytime Parthasarathy would do all sorts of the works Yogi asked him to do, to bring eatables from the hotels and sing songs. In the nighttime Yogi would ask him to chant his name and Parthasarathy would chant the mantra the whole night without having a break. During those days, one night when it was around past midnight, Yogi suddenly got up from his bed and sat before Parthasarathy. The latter stopped chanting and was looking at Yogi’s feet. Yogi asked Parthasarathy to repeat what he said. The atmosphere was strangely different and it was vibrating with a mysterious silence. Yogi uttered very seriously loading all his energy, ‘Yogi Ramsuratkumar’ and Parthasarathy repeated in the same tone ‘Yogi Ramsuratkumar’. Yogi uttered this three times and Parthasarathy followed. From that day the name of Yogi, ‘Yogi Ramsuratkumar’ became inseparable to Parthasarathy and Parthasarathy never could be the same after that extraordinary powerful initiation.

After this event the next day Parthasarathy felt an unusual peace and bliss throughout his frame and he did not feel hungry or thirsty. For the next few days he ate only if Yogi offered anything to eat. Otherwise he could not eat anything but his body never suffered. He got more energy vibrating with peace. On the next day, when Yogi enquired how he felt, Parthasarathy replied that he was not able to feel him as if he was dead. Yogi said, “Oh, you were in meditation.”

During that period, one night yogi wanted Parthasarathy to remind Him that he should attend a marriage in the early morning at 5 o’ clock. As usual Parthasarathy was chanting Yogi’s Name throughout the night. Yogi got up around 4 o’ clock in the morning. Instantly Yogi wanted to make himself ready to attend the marriage. He wanted to change his dress, as it was heavily dirty. Even though Yogi did not bother about his and Parthasarathy’s morning ablutions, Yogi wanted to change his dress. So he picked out one parcel from the heaps of the bundles, which were offered by the devotees in one corner of the hall in the house. That was a dhoti and Yogi changed to it. He removed his dirty shirt and again picked one more parcel and opened. That too was a dhoti. He tried again for a few times but every time it was a dhoti again.

Yogi could not find a kurtha and so he tried to cover his upper portion of his body with the long end of the dhoti and asked Parthasarathy whether it was all right. As it did not look nice Parthasarathy did not answer. Yogi said, “Oh, you don’t like.” Then he tried again with the dhoti to cover his upper portion in a different way and again asked Parthasarathy whether it was presentable. Parthasarathy did not reply as he did not like that also. Yogi asked Parthasarathy to go and pick up one parcel and open it. Parthasarathy got one and opened it and fortunately it was a kurtha. He gave it to Yogi and Yogi wore the kurtha. Yogi became all white. Yogi said, “The dress is ok now, but this bad smell…...” by saying this he produced a different sound as if he was commanding some one. Lo, the bad smell gone and a pleasant sandalwood smell started emanating from his body. In the morning he did not take bath and not even wash his face and still Yogi was glowing with a divine brilliance and royal look.

The King with Parthasarathy after locking the house carefully started walking to the kalyana mandapam (marriage hall). The mandapam was Sivakasi Nadar Chatram, where Parthasarathy used to stay whenever he visited Tiruvannamalai. This time also Parthasarathy stayed in a room in the upstairs and the marriage function was going on in the ground floor. The people at the marriage hall welcomed Yogi with great reverence and asked Yogi to sit near the homa just opposite to the couples. Yogi sat there with Parthasarathy by his side and was there for more than an hour till the completion of the marriage rituals.

After the marriage was over, Yogi asked Parthasarathy to go to Udupi Brindavan Hotel to take his breakfast and come again to the kalyana mandapam. Parthasarathy took his breakfast and returned back to the kalyana mandapam after an hour and searched for Yogi, peeping inside the mandapam from the main door. Suddenly he could hear Yogi’s loud laughter from behind and when Parthasarathy turned back at the office room, Yogi was sitting in the office room. Yogi said, “You are looking for this beggar everywhere but this beggar is right behind you!”

Yogi asked Parthasarathy in which room he was staying. Parthasarathy told he was staying in the room upstairs. Yogi and Parthasarathy went to the room. Yogi asked Parthasarathy to remove the mattress from the cot and lay down. Parthasarathy also lay down on the ground and both took rest for some time. In the evening around 3 o’ clock, Yogi woke up Parthasarathy and asked him to start. Parthasarathy locked the room and walked with Yogi. Yogi got hold of Parthasarathy’s hand and took him to a friend’s house in Thiruvoodal Street, where the Sivakasi Nadar Chatram was situated. Yogi asked Parthasarathy to wait for him near the compound gate. He went to the upstairs of the house and came back after half an hour with a book in his hand.

Yogi took Parthasarathy to the temple through the south gopuram. Parthasarathy was wearing slippers. As Yogi pulled him into the temple, he just threw the slippers outside the temple. There Yogi took him to the Sambandha Vinayaka Sannathi and he stood near a pillar. As soon as Yogi stood near the pillar, Parthasarathy moved away from Yogi because it was the strict instructions from Yogi that none of his people should disturb him when Yogi was in the temple complex. So, Parthasarathy was sitting in a corner in the shade near Madappalli, the temple kitchen, all the time looking at Yogi.

After a few minutes, Yogi gesticulated to Parthasarathy to come near him. Parthasarathy went near Yogi and Yogi asked him to sit just before him on the hot rock floor. It was burning hot and Parthasarathy had to sit, but within a few minutes he was not able to sit anymore. He went to Yogi and Yogi enquired why he got up. He told that he had thrown his slippers outside the temple and so he would pick it up and put it where it should be put. On hearing him, Yogi enquired “Do you think the slippers will be there?” Parthasarathy replied that he did not know.

Yogi took Parthasarathy’s hand and went to the entrance of south kopuram to search for the slippers. The slippers had disappeared, somebody might have taken away. Yogi asked Parthasarathy to go to the room and get washed and purchase a new pair of slippers and then come and see Yogi. Parthasarathy ran towards his room and poured cold water on the legs for sometime. There were several blisters in the legs. Then he went to a shop and purchased a new pair of slippers. He went to the Sannathi Street house and met Yogi there.

On seeing Parthasarathy Yogi first asked, “Have you purchased new slippers?” Parthasarathy replied in affirmative. Then Yogi enquired at what rate he purchased the slippers. Parthasarathy told it was Rs.16/- Yogi enquired the cost of the slipper, which Parthasarathy had lost. Parthasarathy told the cost of the lost one was Rs.45/-. Yogi again asked why he had not purchased a new pair at the cost of the lost one. Parthasarathy did not answer. Yogi said “Oh you don’t have enough money. It’s all right.” Yogi enquired where the new slippers were. Parthasarathy told it was in the outside verandah. Yogi got up and took him to the verandah and saw the new slippers. Then Yogi took him inside again and asked him to chant Yogi’s name.

After three weeks Yogi asked Parthasarathy where he wanted to go. Parthasarathy replied that he would like to go to Bangalore and work in Janardhanan’s office. Yogi expressed his approval and joy. He gave money to Parthasarathy for his journey to Bangalore. Parthasarathy went to Bangalore. He once again joined Janardhanan’s office and worked there peacefully.

In a few months Parthasarathy became totally different and his attitude against his wife had changed. He sincerely felt why he should hate Rathika. He realised that hating anybody or anything would not lead one to peace and joy. Even though it was not possible for people to love others, he felt it was certainly inhuman to hate fellow beings. He requested Janardhanan to grant him leave for a few days. Janardhanan thinking that Parthasarathy wanted to go to Yogi asked him how many days he would like to remain in Tiruvannamalai. When he heard Parthasarathy expressing his wish to go to Madurai to see Rathika, Janardhanan was afraid of his motives. At that time, Parthasarathy was talking only about saints and their teachings out of the influence of his reading spiritual books. Everyone thought that either he had gone mad or he was pretending as if he was leading a spiritual life. However, Janardhanan sanctioned leave for a few days and Parthasarathy went to Madurai to see Rathika.

Unusually Parthasarathy freely expressed himself to everybody and the members of his father in law’s family got confused and panicked. Parthasarathy wanted Rathika to accompany him to Bangalore to start a new life. Rathika, on hearing Parthasarathy got thrilled, but at the same time she was afraid to accompany him. She informed her parents and her parents passed on the message to Janardhanan at Bangalore. Janardhanan called Parthasarathy over phone and tried to check his real intention. Finally he wanted Yogi to confirm the correctness of this action first. Janardhanan went to see Yogi and explained the situation. Yogi listened to him patiently and then requested Janardhanan to arrange a house for Rathika and Parthasarathy to live together in Bangalore. With doubts still in the heart, Janardhanan went back to Bangalore and arranged a small house for Parthasarathy and Rathika. The couple came to Bangalore and started living in the small house. Parthasarathy at this time was thinking only of his guru and though he was staying together with Rathika, it was not an ordinary husband-wife type of life. His behavior made her suspicious and she was crying frequently. Janardhanan and his wife were very upset on seeing this and they started scolding Parthasarathy.

They tried to convince him to change his ways. Janardhanan would quote from the saints’ sayings and Parthasarathy would counter-quote. Janardhanan urged him to go and see Yogi to talk about this. But Parthasarathy retorted that he was not a thief to be policed by Yogi. He wanted it to be settled between himself and Rathika. After much coaxing by Janardhanan, Parthasarathy agreed to go with Janardhanan to Tiruvannamalai. Janardhanan, Vijaya, Parthasarathy and Rathika, all went to Tiruvannamalai and stayed in Sivakasi Nadar Chatram. They took rest for some time and then they went to the Sannathi Street house to see Yogi. Janardhanan knocked at the door and Yogi himself came and opened the gate. Yogi took them all into the house and inquired the purpose of their visit. Janardhanan explained the situation and Rathika’s expectation. Yogi, however, talked in support of Parthasarathy and recounted the story of a great saint Thiruneelakantha. He said Parthasarathy wanted to do penance for Yogi’s Father.

Parthasarathy had then a strong desire to realise God and he wanted to work for it. He felt that remaining in solitude and remembering Yogi’s name was the only way to attain God. Realisation was the sole goal for Parthasarathy then and all else was nothing to him. He had no fear, no anxiety and no aims for the mundane life. The influence of the lives of the saints particularly Swami Ramdas, Ram Thirtha and J.Krishnamurti played a major role in making Parthasarathy a whole.

After going through Ram Thirtha’s ‘In the Woods of God Realisation’, Parthasarathy wanted to spend full time in remembrance of God. At that time he was least bothered about the physical comforts and a one time simple meal was sufficient for him. The name Yogi Ramsuratkumar became part and parcel of his being and without his efforts the holy name vibrated in his being all the time. He felt as if he was totally one with God and in that intoxication he dismissed everybody’s protest made out of care and concern.
Janardhanan was upset and quoted Swami Ram Thirtha that penance could be done even in the bathroom. To this, Parthasarathy said sarcastically that he had only a common bathroom and no penance was possible there. Yogi supported Parthasarathy’s arguments and asked Janardhanan to make arrangements for a separate room so that Parthasarathy could do his penance undisturbed. He could meditate inside the room and Rathika could lock the room from outside, watching none could disturb him. Yogi quoted the story of Parvati, who waited patiently with the nectar in her hands to be offered to Siva, who was in deep meditation. As soon as Siva woke up from the deep meditation, Parvati would offer the nectar to Siva, who would drink the same and got energised to go again to deep meditation.

After coaxing Janardhanan to facilitate Parthasarathy to continue his penance, Yogi then allowed everybody to leave and they came back to Bangalore. Janardhanan, out of frustration did not do anything as per the suggestion of Yogi to make a room for Parthasarathy to do his penance. Parthasarathy was least bothered and he continued to live the way he found blissful. He was an obedient servant in the shop. He was a good friend and a man who could listen to the problems of others and was always in joy, least affected by the irritating comments from his relatives. He had no fear about his future and he always felt secure as if he were in the lap of Yogi Ramsuratkumar, his Father. Whenever anybody tried to counsel him to adopt the ways of the world, he would respond why he should worry, it was all God’s will, who was none other than Yogi Ramsuratkumar. It irked Janardhanan. Rathika was not happy either and she was in constant fear of the future.

In the meantime a close friendship developed among Sivasankaran, Parthasarathy and Murugeshji. They made a plan to go on a pilgrimage, starting with a visit to Yogi in Tiruvannamalai. Janardhanan did not want to give permission to Parthasarathy to go on pilgrimage. He didn’t like the friendship of Parthasarathy, a pauper, with a rich man, Murugeshji. The friendship between a pauper and a rich man astonished several people, but Murugeshji was least bothered. He loved Parthasarathy and treated him with equality and respect. It all happened due to Yogi’s closeness to Parthasarathy. Yogi encouraged the friendship of Murugeshji, Parthasarathy and Sivasankaran. That friendship in Yogi was different from the normal friendship and all the three used to talk only about life, God and Yogi Ramsuratkumar, the guru. Yogi did not allow others to disturb that friendship and wished the friendship be everlasting. Yogi, in the year 1982, asked the three friends to meet once in every month, for three days in any one of their houses. But the relatives and friends of Murugeshji and Sivasankaran felt uneasy on seeing Parthasarathy, a pauper moving with those rich friends.

During that time, one day Murugeshji invited Parthasarathy and Rathika to his house at Tuticorin. Both of them went to Tuticorin. Murugeshji wanted Parthasarathy to be a free man. He asked Parthasarathy to resign his job at Bangalore and settle at Sivakasi and do some business there. Parthasarathy could not decide and so Murugeshji asked him to go to Tiruvannamalai to get it clarified by Yogi. So, both Rathika and Parthasarathy went to Tiruvannamalai to visit Yogi. As usual Yogi showered his compassion on both of them and took them inside the Sannathi Street house. Then Parthasarathy told Yogi that Murugeshan wanted him to come to Sivakasi to get into some business as a salesman on commission basis. He told Yogi that Murugeshji wished him not to be a servant to anybody because Murugeshji felt that a seeker should always be free. Yogi listened patiently and after a long pause suggested him to wait for some more time. At this time Yogi received a letter from Janardhanan. In that letter Janardhanan mentioned that he would sanction leave for Parthasarathy either to go to Ananadashram or the pilgrimage with Murugeshan and Sivasankaran, but not both.

Parthasarathy was passionate then to visit Anandashram after he had gone through ‘The Gospel of Swami Ramdas’. Long before, he had planned to visit Anandashram and Janardhanan had sanctioned him leave already. At the same time he didn’t like to miss the pilgrimage with the other friends too. On seeing the letter from Janardhanan, Yogi immediately asked Parthasarathy to resign his job at Bangalore and move to Sivakasi permanently. On hearing the suggestion of Yogi, Rathika was afraid to come out of the protection of her sister and brother in law at Bangalore. She expressed her fears to Yogi. Yogi told her that Parthasarathy would not commit any harm to her, so she had no need to be panic. After some time Yogi relieved them both and they went to Bangalore.

Parthasarathy and Rathika went to Janardhanan’s house and informed Janardhanan about Yogi’s intention that they should go and settle at Sivakasi. Janardhanan was shocked, but anyhow, he relieved them soon. Both Rathika and Parthasarathy moved to Sivakasi within fifteen days of their meeting with Yogi. Murugeshji had arranged a house for them. They started living in the new house. Parthasarathy joined a company that manufactured printing ink, as a commission agent and within a year he could get a sizeable income, which enabled him to bring his parents, brothers and a sister to live together at Sivakasi. By this time Rathika got used to being with his family and started loving them.

The date for the pilgrimage arrived. All the friends, Murugeshan, Sivasankaran and Parthasarathy decided to go to Tiruvannamalai first to see Yogi. They planned to stay with Yogi along with their families for three days and then start for the pilgrimage. During their visit, Sri.Ki.Va.Jaganathan, a scholar, had also come to see Yogi. Yogi took Sivasankaran and Murugeshji along with Ki.Va. Jaganathan and asked Parthasarathy to stay in the Chatram to look after the ladies and children. Parthasarathy arranged food for the ladies and the children and they took it. They wanted Parthasarathy to take food as it was getting late. He told them that he would like to take food along with Yogi and other friends.

As soon as Yogi returned with the friends Murugeshan and Sivasankaran, Murugeshan’s mother Padmavati told Yogi that Parthasarathy had great love for Yogi that he refused to take food without Yogi. Yogi told, “If Parthasarathy cannot love Rathika, then it is impossible for him to love this beggar.” Parthasarathy was dumbfounded that Yogi was encouraging him in doing penance but could say this, too. He was pained and shocked. He contemplated for a long time but still there was pain and confusion. Yogi was all the time laughing.

Yogi then made them cancel their tour program. (They were to go to Bangalore, then proceed in a van to see many saints, sadhus and Rajneesh too.) He said, “This Beggar is enough for you people.” They stayed with Yogi for a week and then went to Kodaikanal to stay for a week as per the suggestion of Yogi. There, the friends discussed Parthasarathy’s situation and asked him to lead a normal life with his wife so that nobody could watch him and thus he could pursue his path to God without any disturbances from others. Finally, Parthasarathy was convinced.

Murugeshan had awakened Parthasarathy into the reality that Father was the sole doer and we should remain as a tool. Hating and refusing the law of nature would never bring forth the wisdom of the Supreme Father. Moreover, Yogi had expressed once his satisfaction, in choking voice by saying, “This beggar committed a great mistake by running away from his family to remember my Father all the time, but this beggar is very happy on seeing you friends, even though you are all living in the family and still remembering my Father all the time. This beggar feels at home with you friends. This is Vaikuntha for this beggar. So far this Beggar’s name is there in this world, the names of Murugeshan, Parthasarathy and Sivasankaran will also be there.”

On seeing the reality behind the words of Yogi and Murugeshan, Parthasarathy started to reason out the things and found that living with a girl of devotion would not affect one’s spiritual growth. When Murugeshji pointed out various saints’ lives, living with their wives and children and still be one with God, Parthasarathy decided to have a normal life. By doing so, the renunciation he exhibited remained only within, unnoticed by others. This was of a great help to him. By making Parthasarathy to have a normal life, Yogi made him understand the problems of relationship in this world. In the later years, Yogi used to say, “This beggar was worrying about Parthasarathy, but somehow my king Murugeshji changed Parthasarathy.” From that day, everything came to Parthasarathy and Yogi started showering his love and compassionate grace on Parthasarathy.

Whenever the three friends were with Yogi, Yogi would not allow others. Yogi would keep them near him for several days. When the three decided to walk from Tuticorin to Tiruvannamalai, Yogi encouraged the proposal. The three walked together, experienced severe hardship. Then again Murugeshji and Parthasarathy with the help of a friend Anand walked from Tuticorin to Tiruvannamalai, this time without much hardship.

In 1983, Yogi wanted Murugeshji to make audiocassettes of the songs of Sri. Periasamy Thooran on Yogi. Yogi also gave the instructions to Murugeshji to get the guidance from Periasamy Thooran regarding the singers. The next three months Murugeshji worked for that. Sri Periasamy Thooran recommended the top ranked singers to sing his songs and accordingly Murugeshji arranged for them. During the recording, Murugeshji wanted Sivasankaran and Parthasarathy to join him to help him at Madras. There Murugeshji had irritation on seeing the indifferent attitude of Sivasankaran regarding the recording of the songs. Somehow the recording was over and it was the first audio cassette of the songs on Yogi. Parthasarathy gave the introductory speech in the cassette and Smt.Rajakumari announced the ragas of the songs. Yogi listened to the whole cassette with great attention. After listened to the songs, Yogi lavishly appreciated the efforts of Murugeshji with great emotions. He presented one rupee coin to both Parthasarathy and Rajakumari. Yogi asked Murugeshji to distribute the cassettes to all the devotees at free of cost.

In 1984, Yogi wanted Murugeshji and Parthasarathy to visit Ananadashram with their families and stay there for three days. Murugeshji and Parthasarathy went there and had the darshan of Mataji Krishnabai and Swami Satchidananda. Yogi earlier asked Murugeshji and Parthasarathy to enquire Swami Satchidananda about Yogi’s early life. Yogi asked the friends to go through ‘The Vision’ the monthly magazine of Anandashram from the year 1950 to 1955 so that they could get several materials on the past life of Yogi.

Earlier Swami Satchidananda had compiled and published a book, ‘The Gospel of Swami Ramdas’. Swami Satchidananda had mentioned in that book about Yogi as BIHARI. Yogi told Parthasarathy during one of the meetings along with Murugeshji that there were references about him in the Gospel. Parthasarathy replied that there was no mention of Yogi in the book with his name. Then Yogi told that Swami Satchidananda mentioned Bihari instead of his name R.S.Kunwar.

Murugeshji and Parthasarathy went through the old editions of ‘The Vision’, during their visit to Anandashram. They happened to see the same material in ‘The Vision’ that had already been mentioned in the Gospel. When both Murugeshji and Parthasarathy asked for more details, Swami Satchidananda was evasive.

During their return journey from Anandashram both Murugeshji and Parthasarathy had the darshan of Koti Swami of Puravipalayam, near Pollachi as per the instructions of Yogi. There Murugeshji and Parthasarathy enjoyed the company of Koti Swami and was there for more than two hours in a blissful state. The saint was showering his abundant love and grace on the friends.

In 1984, one Sri Manian, Editor of a popular spiritual magazine wanted to interview Yogi at Tiruvannamalai and he got permission from Yogi. The latter wanted both Murugeshji and Parthasarathy to come to Tiruvannamalai to stay with him in March 3rd, 4th and 5th to help him during the interview. Both Murugeshji and Parthasarathy reached Tiruvannamalai and were with Yogi for three days. On 4th March around 4pm Yogi was indicating something, which the friends were not able to comprehend. Yogi spent the whole three days with the friends and he allowed none to come near him. All his attention was with Murugeshji and he showered his love and grace on Murugeshji. On 5th morning Yogi saw his friends off and it was the last meeting for Murugeshji. In the next month April 4th, 1984, evening 4’o clock Murugeshji passed away at Calcutta.

Parthasarathy was completely broken and exhausted after the demise of his dearest friend Murugeshji. He could not sleep continuously for four days, as the death news of his friend Murugeshji totally shattered him. He visited Yogi in 8/4/1984. It was in the early morning around 6 o’ clock Parthasarathy met Yogi in the Sannathi Street house. In his own mystical way, Yogi shared Parthasarathy’s sorrows. Yogi said that he believed Murugeshji’s death news only after he received the detailed Telegram from Parthasarathy.

Yogi enquired him about how the body was brought to Tuticorin, who did the final rites and what happened to the box in which Murugeshji’s body was brought from Calcutta. Parthasarathy answered all the questions. Yogi paused a few minutes and told him in a choked voice that Murugeshji had realised his Father and he was worshipable. Again there was a deep silence for a few minutes. Suddenly Yogi asked Parthasarathy how many days passed till he slept. Parthasarathy said that he could not sleep from the date of Murugeshji’s death.

Somebody knocked the door at that time and Yogi himself went outside to see. In a few minutes Yogi returned back carrying two parcels. Yogi opened the parcels and there were hot idlies. Yogi asked Parthasarathy to have breakfast with Yogi. Both finished the breakfast. Then Yogi asked Parthasarathy to lie down and talk. Yogi also lay down on his mat. Parthasarathy while talking went into deep sleep. He woke up when Yogi called him. It was in the afternoon around 2 o’ clock. There were two parcel of curd rice ready. Both Yogi and Parthasarathy took the curd rice. After the lunch, Yogi again asked Parthasarathy to lie down and talk. As soon as Parthasarathy lay down, he went into a deep sleep. In the night around 8 o’ clock, Yogi again woke him up. Parthasarathy did not know anything that happened around him during his sound sleep in the abode of Yogi. There were two parcels of chapattis ready. Yogi asked him to sit near him. Both Yogi and Parthasarathy opened the parcels and took the chapattis. After the simple food, Yogi again asked him to lie down and talk. Parthasarathy, as soon as he lay down, fell into deep sleep. In the early morning, around 4 o’ clock, Yogi woke him up and said, “This beggar has seen you nicely Parthasarathy. Now you can go to Sivakasi. My Father blesses you Parthasarathy.” Parthasarathy prostrated Yogi and went to the bus stand directly from Yogi’s abode. After the visit to Yogi, by the compassionate grace of Yogi, Parthasarathy got totally refreshed from his deep-rooted sorrows.

After Murugeshji’s death, Sivasankaran was in deep depression. In due course he started adopting several methods to communicate with the spirits of Murugeshji and other dead relatives. That process took him to a serious psychological problem. He started acting like Yogi and said that Yogi’s spirit had come to him. Earlier Parthasarathy had warned Sivasankaran’s family about the alarming situation that Sivasankaran would slip into an insane state, but the family members had believed that he had become a great mahatma. However, when Sivasankaran started behaving violently they got baffled. They then requested Parthasarathy to go to Yogi to get his advice on what should be done. Parthasarathy, Sivasankaran’s co-brother Sri.Rajagopal and his wife Smt.Rajini went to Tiruvannamalai by a taxi to see Yogi. (Meanwhile, Parthasarathy had started a business of his own in Sivakasi.)

As soon as the group reached Yogi’s place at Tiruvannamalai, Yogi inquired about Sivasankaran. Parthasarathy narrated the situation to Yogi. After hearing that, Yogi paused briefly. After some time Yogi suggested to give tranquilisers to Sivasankaran and also suggested to consult a doctor. He told them that the beggar was very much alive at Tiruvannamalai and he wondered how his spirit could go to Sivasankaran at Sivakasi. He assured with a broad smile that his spirit was still with him. He consoled and assured the group that Sivasankaran would be alright in a short period. Anyhow Yogi warned against such practices trying to contact the spirits.

Yogi turned his attention on Parthasarathy. Yogi enquired Parthasarathy what he was doing. When Parthasarathy said that he had started his own business, Yogi told him “If you and this beggar start doing business, who will look after this world Parthasarathy?” Parthasarathy got the message from Yogi’s words.

After a short time Yogi relieved the group and the group reached Sivakasi the same night. The family members of Sivasankaran admitted him into a hospital with much difficulty after tranquillising him. In a few weeks he became alright and returned to his place.

Parthasarathy decided to get relieved from the business in 1986 after his visit to Yogi. He stopped going to the office, handed over everything to his younger brother Suryanarayanan. He would just roam around and help whoever asked for his help. He was always remembering Yogi. Once or twice a year he would go to Tiruvannamalai to meet Yogi. During one such visit, Yogi asked Parthasarathy if he wanted to go to the Himalayas, he could go right then, or, if he wanted to go to Anandashram, he could do that too. Yogi seriously suggested to Parthasarathy that if he wanted to go straight away to the Himalayas or Anandashram, or live in any one of the caves of the Hill, he could do that right then. Parthasarathy was frightened. To escape from the situation, he told Yogi that he would become a cause of disturbance to Yogi if he lived in the hill because he would have the temptation to see Yogi daily. Parthasarathy actually had the fear that Yogi wanted to send him away from the world once for all. Parthasarathy then realised that so far he had deceived himself that he had the real longing for God and God Realisation. When Yogi directed him to renounce everything he had, he was terrified. That situation threatened him. He wanted to escape from the situation. That’s why he was evasive and giving various excuses. Yogi responded him, “Oh, you can meet this beggar daily. You can talk to this beggar daily. After all what for this beggar is sitting here?” However Parthasarathy’s fear increased. He hesitantly responded to Yogi that he would go back to his place. Yogi did not pressurise further and allowed Parthasarathy to leave for his place Sivakasi.

The oscillation between the desires to uphold the self and renounce the life was constantly stirring in Parthasarathy. However, after a few weeks Parthasarathy somehow felt a deep urge to stay in one of the caves at the Holy Hill at Tiruvannamalai. He went to Tiruvannamalai and could get space in one of the caves Guhai Namasivaya. He spent four days alone in Guhai Namasivaya Cave in the Holy Arunachala Hill. After four days he came down from the hill and went to Sannathi Street house where Yogi resided. Yogi was then sitting in the staircase of the house. Yogi greeted him with a warm laughter and enquired him from where he was coming from. Parthasarathy said he was in the hill for four days. Yogi asked Parthasarathy where he stayed on the hill. Parthasarathy said that he stayed in the Guhai Namasivaya Cave. Yogi caught hold of Parthasarathy’s hand and told him that Yogi had also lived in the cave for more than six months.

Yogi Asked Parthasarathy how he felt on the hill. Parthasarathy replied that he felt different. He said that even though he hadn’t slept, he was alert, awake and in a way blissful. The holy name ‘Yogi Ramsuratkumar’ was emanating from his being so naturally without his efforts. Parthasarathy also told that he had seen a sadhu, who lived there and the two talked, but only at the time they were having a simple lunch.

Thereafter, on the suggestion of Yogi, Parthasarathy would go in solitude every month to spend three days away from his place, either in a forest or in some other place where it would be peace and serene until he was totally alone in his house in 1989. By the grace of Yogi, he was able to get out of the fear of losing the self and thereafter such fears could never settle in him. He played his role in the life as per the direction and guidance of Yogi. There was no goal, no aim and so no desires too. He became free from himself. All glory to Yogi!

During that time, Gnanagiri Ganeshan had trouble in his family. There was partition among his family members in their business organizations. His family had several industrial units connected with printing industry. The other partners had absorbed the main staff of their printing ink manufacturing unit during the partition and the unit’s manager also went with the other group. The auditors of the unit Raghunath and Ganeshan of Pondichery who were also the devotees of Yogi urged Parthasarathy to look after the unit, which was running in loss for more than fifteen years. Yogi also asked Parthasarathy earlier to help Ganeshan and so Parthasarathy took up the work of managing the printing ink unit.

Parthasarathy turned around the fortunes of the company in a year’s time. The unit was profitably running with harmonious atmosphere among the workers. He felt that his work was over in the unit and should get away from there. He was restless and wanted to leave his job immediately. But Ganeshan insisted him to remain in the job and refused to let him go. He used Yogi’s name which Parthasarathy didn’t like. Parthasarathy felt that his job was over and he should be in solitude for some time. One fine morning he handed over the keys to Gnanagiri Ganeshan and he went to Gurumalai in the forest area of Kovilpatti without informing his wife and family. One of the friends of Yogi helped him to reach the place.

It was a formidable forest area and Parthasarathy spent four days in a blissful state in the area. Nobody knew his whereabouts. Gnanagiri Ganeshan told Rathika that Parthasarathy had gone away as a mendicant and there was no chance of him to come back again. Therefore, he suggested her to go back to her father to live the rest of her life. Rathika was shocked and could not believe that Parthasarathy had left her once for all. Still she had a sense of fear. She went to Madurai to see her father and explained the situation to her father. She took her father and went to see Yogi at Tiruvannamalai. She met Yogi and explained the situation. Yogi listened to Rathika patiently and assured her that Parthasarathy would come back to her. Yogi consoled her by saying that Parthasarathy would soon come back to her and their pet dog Dober. Rathika and her father both were relieved and prostrated before Yogi with great devotion and gratitude. Yogi sent them back to Sivakasi to wait for Parthasarathy.

After 4 days, Parthasarathy’s brother in law came to Gurumalai to fetch him. He was suspicious of Parthasarathy’s intentions. Parthasarathy told him that he only wanted to be there temporarily. However, Parthasarathy was angry with Ganeshan for misinterpreting his trip to Gurumalai and stopped talking to him.

For the next two years, Parthasarathy would be off for three days every month to some secluded place. That’s how he learned to be alone. Suddenly one day, in 1989 he decided to live in a small room in his house in Sivakasi, undisturbed by anyone except the devotees of Yogi’s. He then had been always remembering Yogi and his name. He was in a blissful state and his body was so cooperative. A simple noon meal was sufficient and he hardly could sleep.

The state was indescribable. He would laugh, weep and dance in total carefree state. The movements of the world and its people were like the images seen in the cinema screen. He could feel the very existence of the world was nothing but an illusion and GOD alone was the real. The oneness happened so naturally to him. Rathika then visited Yogi at Tiruvannamalai with her friends. Yogi enquired Rathika frequently what would Parthasarathy do then. When Rathika replied that Parthasarathy would be by then remembering Yogi’s Name, Yogi would say, “Oh he might be meditating and remembering my Father. He is doing great tapas.” One whole year passed like this.

During that time, Yogi, through one of the devotees from Sivakasi, expressed his wish to see Parthasarathy. Parthasarathy went to Tiruvannamalai to have the darshan of Yogi. Janardhanan from Bangalore, Perumalappan from Srivilliputtur, Om Prakash Yogini, Murugadas of Kumarakoil and a friend from America were there with Yogi. The whole town Tiruvannamalai was then flooded with huge crowd, because Sri Rajiv Gandhi, the Ex. Prime Minister of India was to visit Tiruvannamalai for election campaigning. All the friends were sitting with Yogi at the Sannathi Street house. Yogi suddenly said, “Our Rajiv Gandhi today visits Tiruvannamalai. My Father says this beggar should see him. Do you have a car, any of you?” Nobody came by car then. Yogi said, “Alright we shall go by walk. This beggar heard that Rajiv Gandhi lands at the college ground. We shall go there.”

Yogi carefully locked the house and caught hold of Janardhanan’s hand. The group walked to the college ground. It was a very hot day. The group reached the college ground, which was a few kilometers away from the town. There was a huge crowd, waiting for Rajiv Gandhi. There was noise from the people as well as from the loud speakers. There was no shadow. Some police official took Yogi to a secure place allotted for VIPs. Yogi requested the friends to wait for him in a particular place. After a few hours of waiting, the group saw Rajiv Gandhi landing at the college ground by a helicopter. He was taken to the stage and he talked for a few minutes. Then he came down from the stage. A political bigwig of Tiruvannamalai introduced Yogi to Rajiv Gandhi. Rajiv Gandhi saluted Yogi by joining his palms and said “Pranams”. Yogi caught hold of Rajiv Gandhi’s hands and blessed him. Rajiv Gandhi took leave of Yogi and others and left for Madras.

The crowd dispersed. Yogi and the friends came out of the college ground. A Muslim friend saw Yogi coming out of the college premises. He came near Yogi and saluted with reverence. Yogi hugged him and showered his love on the Muslim friend. The Muslim friend was running a wayside hotel. He invited Yogi to his small hotel for lunch. Yogi accepted with a condition that the friend should accept money. After much protest the Muslim friend accepted to receive money. Yogi asked the friend to serve the whole group. The Muslim friend gave vegetable rice to the group on lotus leaves. There was no space inside the thatched roof hotel. So Yogi got his food and sat beneath a big tamarind tree just outside the college. The place was dirty and there was a foul smell. The other friends also sat with Yogi and ate the simple food. The Principal of the college was informed by somebody that Yogi was taking food sitting on the roadside. He came running to Yogi and prayed to him to come inside the college premises. Yogi politely told that the place under the tree was comfortable and the Principal could go and attend his works. After finishing the meals, Yogi asked Janardhanan to pay the hotel owner. Janardhanan paid money to the Muslim friend. Then Yogi took the friends to the hill through the beaten path adjacent to Ramanashram. Yogi would ask Parthasarathy to fetch water in his coconut shell in every theertham (water pond) of the holy hill. He would drink the water whenever he felt tired. The eldest of the group was Perumalappan. He might be seventy years old then. While climbing up the hill, Yogi enquired about Perumalappan, who was very shy and reserved. On hearing Yogi, Perumalappan jumped from behind and stood before Yogi. On seeing his briskness, Yogi smiled and said, “Oh, he is alright.”

During walking, Yogi observed everything on the hill, the trees, the birds and the movement of devotees. There were a lot of lemon grass plants on the hill. He gently plucked one piece of lemon grass and soaked in the water. He drank the water slowly. The whole group walked in a slow pace and enjoyed the serene atmosphere on the holy hill. Yogi showed the friends Guhai Namachivaya cave, Virupaksha cave, Skandashram and finally Banyan Tree cave, where Papa Ramdas got God Realisation. Before nightfall the group reached the big temple entering through the west gopuram. Inside the temple the group went to the Thousand Pillar Mandapam and sat near the staircase. The whole day the friends enjoyed the holy company of Yogi. There came an old devotee called Panju Swami. Yogi spent considerable time with Panju Swami.

In the next day Yogi asked the friends to disperse. Parthasarathy came back to Sivakasi. In a few months he was able to observe the financial struggling of his brother. At that time Parthasarathy’s brother couldn’t come up with the meager money that Parthasarathy needed for his lifestyle. Parthasarathy observed the sufferings of his family members and their sufferings affected him. He decided to go back to work at the printing ink office he started in 1985. He worked hard from 1990 to 2000 along with his younger brother and one of his elder brother’s sons. He was able to earn substantial money. He built up the company and amassed a good fortune out of the business. It all looked like a game to him. There was no difference in whatsoever he did. Both sitting alone in a secluded place and working hard in the office were same to him because it was nothing but Yogi’s work. He was successful in whatever he did with total involvement in the business. The working in the office did not affect him anymore.

In 1993, Janardhanan of Bangalore came to Sivakasi and met Parthasarathy. He told Parthasarathy that he had been recently with Yogi Ramsuratkumar at Tiruvannamalai and got permission to build an ashram for Yogi and his devotees. He told that initially Yogi vehemently objected to the ashram proposal, but when Janardhanan explained the difficulties of the devotees who had to stand for long hours in the hot sun and rain to have the darshan of Yogi, Yogi replied, “This beggar does not need an Ashram, Janardhana. This beggar could manage in this small place to do my Father’s work, but if you feel the need of an Ashram for the devotees, then you can proceed. But there is one condition. You should not insist this beggar to come to the Ashram. This beggar may come or may not come. What do you say?” Janardhanan felt happy and accepted the conditions of Yogi. Then Yogi enquired Janardhanan what was his plan. Janardhanan immediately told that he would go to Sivakasi and discuss the Ashram issue among the friends at Sivakasi.

Janardhanan organised a meeting of the devotees of Yogi in his mother’s house at Sivakasi. He narrated his conversation with Yogi to the friends. Parthasarathy and a few other devotees felt extreme joy and offered substantial amount for the noble cause. Within a few days, even before locating the place for the Ashram and starting a Trust, substantial amount had been deposited with Janardhanan. For another one year Janardhanan, Parthasarathy, Sri Ramamurti of Virudhunagar and Sri Raghunath of Pondichery worked with all joy and dedication to found an ashram. They formed Yogi Ramsuratkumar Trust. Yogi nominated Janardhanan as the only Life Trustee. The friends travelled throughout Tamilnadu to get donations from the devotees and other devoted souls. The friends purchased 3 acres of land in Tiruvannamalai that had been chosen by Yogi.

In February 1994, after Janardhanan resigned from the Trust, Parthasarathy and other friends also came out from the active participation in the Trust. Yogi personally enquired the friends whether they could work for Yogi without Janardhanan. All but Parthasarathy, expressed their inability to work without Janardhanan. Parthasarathy was ready to say yes to Yogi, but before that Yogi intervened and said to Parthasarathy, “So you are not going to work without Janardhanan!” Saying this Yogi did not wait to listen to Parthasarathy. He went to his place and sat down. Parthasarathy understood that Yogi did not like him to participate in the work of the ashram. Later he realised that working or serving any religious or spiritual organisations would affect one’s freedom and it would slowdown one’s journey towards God.

In a few days all the documents, accounts and other cash balance were handed over to Yogi by Janardhanan with the help of Ragu, the auditor. The situation was so tense and emotional for everybody but Parthasarathy. The latter felt that Yogi relieved them from the great burden of the ashram and they should be grateful to Yogi. But his words failed to convince the friends, who were totally upset. All the transferring work of the Trust was over and the friends dispersed. They returned to their places. Thereafter there was less meeting among those friends, but they visited Yogi regularly.

The new team which started governing the Trust had always mistrust on the friends and whenever the friends visited Yogi in the ashram, they would look at them suspiciously and commented about them adversely. They felt insecure in their posts in the Trust. God knows the reasons for their insecurity! In another few years one by one had to resign from the Trust. But before their resignation, they had to yield to the pressure of somebody to prepare and register an illegal Supplemental Trust Deed documents which paved way for the Trust property to reach an individual. A writ petition was filed against the registration of the Supplemental Trust Deed by the author in the Madras High court and it was admitted. The writ petition is still pending for disposal. This whole episode happened it seems, to establish the Truth that the darkness exists right beneath the light.

In 1994, Rajakumari Murugeshan and Rathika came to Tiruvannamalai on the Guru Poornima Day. Yogi made them to stay in Tiruvannamalai for another one year. Initially they were staying in Sivakasi Nadar Chatram. After a few months Yogi located a house for them at Ramana Nagar, near the ashram site for rent and asked the ladies to shift from Nadar Chatram to the rented house.

From 1994, whenever Parthasarathy visited Tiruvannamalai Ashram, he would stand in the line and salute Yogi. He would never approach the administration people to request for a personal audience with Yogi, but whenever Yogi saw Parthasarathy, he would call Parthasarathy and meet him personally and spend some time with him. Yogi’s love and compassion towards Parthasarathy never changed, instead it got strengthened.

In 1998, Yogi gave Parthasarathy a responsible, but difficult work of solving the problem of a young couple. The parents of the girl wanted to get divorce for their daughter, while the husband of the girl was not willing. The husband repented for his atrocities and wanted to have reconciliation with his wife. The girl and her parents were ardent devotees of Yogi. They came to Yogi for his guidance. Yogi asked the girl and her parents to tell everything that they had told Yogi to Parthasarathy. He enquired the parents whether they had contacts with Parthasarathy. The parents were known to Parthasarathy for a long time. They told Yogi that they would contact Parthasarathy and would tell him the problem. Yogi told them that Parthasarathy would take up the problem seriously and help them to solve the same.

The parents contacted Parthasarathy and narrated the problem. Parthasarathy went to their place and listened to them about the painful experiences of the girl. He then took them to Yogi. Yogi was happy to know that Parthasarathy got involved into it to solve the problem amicably. The maternal uncle of the boy and some of his well wishers also came to Yogi to get the problem solved smoothly. Yogi told them that Parthasarathy would solve their problem with the guidance of the Supreme Father, who controlled the whole cosmos. Yogi had the great trust on Parthasarathy. Even though a lot of the relatives of the couple were Yogi’s devotees, Yogi had chosen and requested Parthasarathy to solve this problem. It disturbed the other devotees, who were the relatives of the couple. It took one whole year for Parthasarathy to solve the problem amicably among the couple. The experiences he suffered in his own life helped him to solve that problem and the couple became all right. Since then they are living together like any other normal couple. Yogi expressed his joy and thanked Parthasarathy. Anyhow the event had brought Parthasarathy a lot of disturbances and uneasy scenes from the very devotees of Yogi.

Parthasarathy visited Tiruvannamalai in 1998 and 1999 during the Jayanti of Yogi Ramsuratkumar. Yogi would call Parthasarathy daily and ask him to sing or talk before the audience of the devotees. One day Yogi called Parthasarathy and said to him, “Parthasarathy, spare some time for Lee. This beggar will tell Lee to spend time with you. Now you go and sit near Lee.” Mr. Lee Lozovic from the US was a devotee of Yogi since 1976. He was a student of Mother Hilda. Later he developed his own spiritual institutions in the US and in France. He has followers in the US. He had composed several songs on Yogi and compiled all the songs and published in the form of a book. Yogi himself had arranged to sell the books in his presence among the devotees. When Parthasarathy went near Mr. Lee to sit, Mr. Lee hesitated to give space for Parthasarathy as the place was meant only for the group of Mr. Lee from US. After Parthasarathy told Mr. Lee that Yogi wanted him to sit near Lee, then alone Mr. Lee allowed Parthasarathy to sit near him. In the meantime Yogi called Mr. Lee and told him, “This beggar asked Parthasarathy to spare time for you. Whenever you find time, you spend time with Parthasarathy and listen to him.” Mr. Lee met Parthasarathy twice and spent considerable time with him. He listened to the experiences of Parthasarathy with Yogi since 1976.

During the month of December, 2000, Yogi asked a youth, who was assisting the then physical attendant of Yogi, to discuss about Veda Patasala with Mr. Lee, Mr. Alan from France and Parthasarathy at the Ma Devaki Veda Patasala premises. This youth was known to Yogi through Sri Rangarajan who was then running a spiritual institution at Madras and was an ex trustee of Yogi Ramsuratkumar Trust. The youth earlier in 1994 was in the ashram and his erratic behaviors forced the then management to warn him and reprimand him. Suddenly one day he disappeared. Again he came to the ashram in 1998, totally exhausted and with a pathetic look. Yogi requested the then management to provide him food and dress and allow him to stay in the ashram. Yogi asked the boy to give respect to the elders and behave properly in the ashram.

That boy had several imaginations about himself and the ashram. He was able to win over the confidence of the physical caretaker of Yogi. Only after the arrival of that youth, the idea of the Veda Patasala sprouted among the people around Yogi. Ma Devaki Veda Patasala Trust had been started in the premises of Yogi Ramsuratkumar Trust. Yogi was the author and Life Trustee of the Trust. Devaki was the managing Life Trustee of the Trust. Around 10000 sq.ft of land had been donated from Yogi Ramsuratkumar Trust to the newly formed Ma Devaki Veda Patasala Trust. The object of the Trust was to teach Vedas, scriptures and other Sastras to everybody irrespective of caste, religion, gender and nationality. In the preamble of the Trust Deed, the people around Yogi attempted to merge Yogi Ramsuratkumar Trust with this newly formed Trust and transfer both the Trusts in favour of one Ma Devaki. The witnesses of this new Trust Deed were Sri T.S.Arunachalam, retired Justice of Madras High Court, and Sri Saktivel, a high school teacher. (This was illegal and the same was questioned in a court of law by the author of this book.)

Yogi urged Sri Anjaneyalu, the building contractor to plan and build the premises for Veda Patasala as quickly as possible. Sri Anjaneyalu completed the building within two months. Yogi was earlier told by the people around him that the new Trust would run the Veda Patasala. But till now no attempt is made to run a Veda Patasala in the premises. The youth had some other ideas regarding the Veda Patasala which Yogi sensed and found against the will of His Father. So, Yogi brought in, the retired Justice of Madras High Court Sri. T.S.Arunachalam and his advocate friend Sri.Viswanathan as the life trustees of the newly formed trust. Yogi relieved Devaki from the Managing Trustee post and asked the retired justice to become the managing trustee. Devaki remained a silent Life Trustee.

In the meantime, Yogi suffered due to cancer. He became alarmingly serious and was admitted in a hospital at Madras. There he got operated and became normal. He was not able to walk, but otherwise all other health parameters were normal. He was in the hospital for a few months. After he became fit to travel, the doctor discharged him from the hospital. Yogi returned back to Tiruvannamalai from Madras in a newly purchased van by the ashram management. He took rest for two days in a room at his abode in the ashram. Thereafter Yogi gave darshan daily. He would call Parthasarathy daily and ask him to talk something, which would be good for the people or sing some songs on Yogi before the devotees gathered in front of Yogi. Parthasarathy would sing some songs and Yogi would bless him by giving some fruits. During one such interaction, Yogi asked Parthasarathy to come and live in Tiruvannamalai. (Parthasarathy had an awakening, but still he was not able to settle at Tiruvannamalai immediately.)

Parthasarathy came to Tiruvannamalai two weeks before Yogi returned from the hospital at Madras. Another fifteen days passed and daily Yogi would call Parthasarathy to sing songs. Almost a month passed away and Parthasarathy wanted to go back to his place Sivakasi. After he completed singing he went to Yogi and prostrated him. Yogi was ready to give a fruit as prasad to him. When Yogi was about to give the fruit to Parthasarathy, the latter told Yogi that he wanted to go back to Sivakasi. On hearing him Yogi smiled and stopped giving the fruit to Parthasarathy and looking at him with all the love and compassion. Parthasarathy thought that Yogi wanted him to stay for a few more days in Tiruvannamalai. So, he told Yogi, “If Swami wants me to stay here for a few more days, then I will stay here.” Yogi immediately responded emphatically, “Stay here.”

Yogi also asked Janardhanan to stay at Tiruvannamalai, but within two days Janardhanan had to tell Yogi that he should go to his place to attend a family function. Yogi got angry and did not respond to Janardhanan. He loudly called Parthasarathy and told him “Janardhanan wants to go and you go with him.” Parthasarathy got confused. Parthasarathy’s place was Sivakasi and Janardhanan’s place was Bangalore, both in different directions. Anyhow, Parthasarathy asked Janardhanan to come by his car and Janardhanan’s car followed. Both Parthasarathy and Janardhanan reached Bangalore and Parthasarathy left Bangalore in the next morning and reached Tiruvannamalai again.

In the evening session, as usual, Parthasarathy was sitting among the congregation of devotees before Yogi. Yogi called him and asked him to sing songs as usual. Ten more days passed. On one morning Yogi asked everybody present before him to stand and tell their names and their native places. Then he asked all the devotees to be present in the evening session also as he wanted to tell something. In the evening Yogi called every individual near him and blessed them by saying “My Father blesses you” or just saying “Rama, Rama”. When it was the turn of Parthasarathy, Yogi asked him “Do you want to say anything?” Parthasarathy responded, “Swami, I am just waiting for your instructions.” Yogi asked, “What is it you are talking about?” Parthasarathy told, “Swami you asked me to stay here and I am staying here. Now I am waiting for your instructions.” On hearing this Yogi got angry and he shouted at Parthasarathy “You can go now”.

Parthasarathy got confused but anyhow he left Tiruvannamalai the same evening to his place. After a month, in January 17th 2001, Parthasarathy received a phone call from the youth who was attending Yogi, from the ashram, saying, “For the past few days Swami is remembering you. He is always repeating your name. Is it possible for you to start to Tiruvannamalai immediately?” Parthasarathy told him that he was right then starting to Tiruvannamalai. In the same evening Parthasarathy reached Tiruvannamalai. He enquired the people around Yogi what happened. The people around Yogi told that for the past few days Yogi was remembering Parthasarathy, by constantly murmuring “Parthasarathy”. The people around Yogi enquired Yogi whether it was Sivakasi Parthasarathy. Yogi said yes. Again they asked whether Yogi wanted to meet Parthasarathy for which Yogi told yes. Then they immediately called Parthasarathy over phone. Parthasarathy also heard that after his last meeting with Yogi on 15/12/2000, Yogi did not give audience as well as did not talk to anybody. He always closed his eyes as if he was sleeping.

In the evening around 8 o’ clock Parthasarathy was taken to the room where Yogi was lying. The people around Yogi repeatedly shouted at the ears of Yogi that Parthasarathy had come to see him. Yogi slowly opened his eyes and saw Parthasarathy. He presented a broad compassionate, welcoming smile and demanded Parthasarathy’s hand. Parthasarathy put his hand into Yogi’s hand and Yogi pressed it gently and said, “Thank you Parthasarathy for coming here.” Those were the last words he uttered. Afterwards he never talked to anybody. Yogi dropped his body in 20th Feb early morning at 3 o’ clock. Parthasarathy was there till the last breath of Yogi. He touched the feet of Yogi and came out. All the final rites were completed. Parthasarathy left for his place on the third day.

Parthasarathy contemplated on Yogi’s words and wish. Finally he submitted his will to Yogi’s wish and decided to live at Tiruvannamalai. At a family meeting, he explained that he wanted to live in Tiruvannamalai permanently. He told them that he would accept whatever they would give him for his living. They said they would give a car and whatever money he would demand. Finally Parthasarathy came to live in Tiruvannamalai with Rathika in 2002, March 24th. Earlier he had fixed a house for rent near the Arunachaleswara Temple’s South Gopuram. The house was similar to Sannathi Street house. Both Parthasarathy and Rathika have been living in the house since 2002.